But For Today I Weep

Mistie

My heart cried all day 

yesterday. 

My eyes also cried 

at the funeral and last night 

when I was asked to say 

the family prayer. 

I put my hands over my face and said 

”Heavenly Father this has been such a sad day.” 

And I cried and cried.  

Finally Danny said 

”Do you want me to say it?” 

Yes, I nodded. 

After the prayer he told me all of the 

wonderful news of the Gospel, 

that Mistie was in a wonderful place 

and her family would be 

with her again.

"Families Can Be Together Forever"

 “I know, I know” 

The first time I hugged Mistie we seemed to know each other heart to heart. And so we hugged a very long time. I had cancer twice and I told her that. There is something about being a Cancer Sister that I can’t explain. I told her that my best friend Carol also had breast cancer that was in her lymph’s too and then later in her bones and liver but that she was able to live for 15 years when they had only given her a few months.

And I told her of a dear friend in California that had brain cancer and the doctors had suggested two months but that a year and a half or so later he is still here and had given a talk in church last month, and it was a miracle.

I told her she must have hope and never give up that she could have a miracle too. Russ told me last week that the cancer was in her spine and on each vertebrae and was causing the most excruciating pain.

After the funeral yesterday I realized that 

her life was the miracle. 

She was the age of my seventh baby 

and youngest daughter 

Jessie 

but she was very much 

like my sixth baby, 

Amy. 

 “Why Mistie?" 

There is a reason, 

I know there is. 

And I know my heart will grasp 

it one of these days but 

'For today I weep.'